I come from a good and stable home, with good parents, the eldest of 3 with 2 sisters. At age 5, my spiritual senses opened, and I could prophesy the future and see ghosts; this is when a demon first came to me. I grew up a restless soul, and at age 15, I started messing around with alcohol, etc. At age 17, I gave my life to Satan and had an encounter with a powerful demon, and after that, I started using drugs. At age 23, I began using acid (LSD); here I encountered the spiritual realms and met many spiritual beings who trained me in the ways of the world. I also met a man who was a top-level drug boss in our country; we became friends, and he chose me to become his protégé. For the next two years, I began searching for meaning, the purpose of my life. I went into Buddhism, into the occult, into every religion I thought I could find understanding.

Then, at age 25, I was standing at the ocean shore when a man walked past me and said: "Follow Me." When I turned to see where this man was, there was no one in sight. I was sure, though, that I heard Him very clearly, so I pondered on this for a few minutes; then, I suddenly understood this was Jesus I heard, and He had called me to follow Him. I was very confused since I was a very dark creature, demon-possessed, with no thought of Jesus at all. At this time, I was completely sober, so I could not even think that I hallucinated, and I was completely awake standing at the ocean shore, so it had to be real. From there, I was given a choice: choose the world and all it can give you through my Mafia friend, or choose the Voice who called me to follow Him; I chose Jesus. I spent a year searching for Him, then His Spirit led me to be baptized. This was the end of my 10 years in utter darkness.

Immediately after my baptism, I was approached by a religious cult and drawn into religiousness for 10 years, studying scripture intensely to eventually become a "Pharisee". At this stage, I had damaged all my relationships with a "holier-than-thou" self-righteous attitude, knowing so much scripture and condemning everyone around me to turn or burn. But I myself fell into sin that I could not control and found myself in great need of grace. This was the end of my 10 years as a religious Pharisee.

Then entered a wonderful man of God who challenged my self-righteousness and discipled me for 5 years, removing all my wrong foundations and helping me rebuild a new and strong tower within me. This is where I heard of Lightower; some prophets came to train us concerning prophecy, and they prophesied over me, stating that I am a Light Tower of which the Lord is restoring and fortifying the foundations. There, from the word Lightower, I met many great, wonderful, and anointed men and women during this time who all planted wonderful building blocks into me. I grew well, and my relationships were restored. Then suddenly, I lost everything and was forced to leave my city, friends, and belongings, and spent the next 5 years mostly in the desert learning, studying, going to courses, and being set free from myself. During this time, my losses only increased, losing my loved ones, my tribe, my ministry—basically, all I held dear.

This brings me to today, May 2022, 30 years of life in the making, and now I am no one; I have nothing and am going nowhere. I am quiet, silently waiting upon the Lord. In 30 years, I have learned this:

I am chosen by the Father, who gave me to His Son, who promised He will never lose any of His own. As I continue to follow Him, I only do what I see my Father do, I only go where He sends me, I only have what He gives me, and I only am what He makes me to be.

Absolute surrender